Distant

I can't see you
I can't smell you
I can't touch you
And I can't feel you
But, somehow, I know you're there.

A distance, so brutally far
A feeling, so uncomfortably near
It fills me with want and desire
And I realize- I must not conspire.

I cannot think and can't imagine
I fear if I do it will make me closer
While you remain out of reach
And probably with someone else...
I know I could be her... if I was there.

I can't see you
I can't smell you
I can't touch you
And I can't feel you
But, somehow, I know you're there.

I long to hear your voice once more.
In the past it filled me with exhilaration
And then left me in despair.
Fill my soul once more with your proper tone
And then jerk it away, as we say, "So long".

I want to know feelings I never felt before
But will I ever experience your gentle touch again?
Or your warm breath against my neck,
As you solemnly whisper, "I love you, I need you."

But.............

I can't see you
I can't smell you
I can't touch you
And I can't taste you
But, somehow, I feel I could.

Why does my heart beat so rapidly
At one little thought of you?
Why do I need for you to touch me, hold me
Press your sweet, warm body to mine?
Oh, give me pleaures I could never know....

I want you to teach me the wonders
I've never known and take me to levels
Never seen before by my quivering soul.
Suck me in, let me drown.....
It would be like a baptism...... my heart with yours.

I can't see you
I can't smell you
I can imagine
And I can't touch you.
Somehow I feel we're beyond that.

We are two- united from the start
Meant to teach, to love, to comfort, and caress.
I could never let go of you
Even though there is nothing to grasp.

Even if it fades over time
It could never fade completely
And, one day, when I do see you.....
I'll feel it's you, I'll know it's you
The love, pain, worries, and curiosity
Will run through me once again.

Then.....

I Will see you
I Will smell you
I Will feel you
I Will taste you
But, somehow... it won't be the same.

Elizabeth Higgins